My First Love.

                                Whoever wrote/ made this, thank you! Everything is true. (c/o Google Images)  
                                                       


Somebody just made me think about my first love. And I think I'm ready to have a change of heart. :)


Writing has always been my first love. Since elementary up to my high school days, it has always been my dream to become a journalist. But for some weird reason, I kind of lost my passion for this when I was in college. Maybe, I got tired of the countless research papers and articles for my Journ classes back then. But since it has been a long dream, I pursued a writing career after graduation as a web copywriter. Writing 2,000 words or equivalent to four or five articles had been a daily occurrence. The end result... it made me somewhat dislike writing. 


Now, I feel that I'd like to renew my vows for this passion. I am like the wife- who once wanted for a divorce, and writing is my husband. However, I never thought that the separation would only make me miss this first love,  which I once embraced wholeheartedly. I am ready to face it after almost two years of not wanting to do it again and I'm keen on working on certain things to get better each day. 


I hope it's not yet too late. :)   

I Don't Want to be the Permeable Membrane

The eating, the traveling, the meditation, all these I want to do after I watched and while I'm currently reading "Eat Pray Love". However, if there's one part in the story that I don't want to experience, it would probably the one about the lover becoming the permeable membrane. It is just so sad. I am so in love with the idea of being loved and loving unconditionally, that I'm scared to lose my own self in the process.


I hope and I pray this won't happen to me and Igme. But I am confident. :)


Here's an excerpt:


Moreover, I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that's not fair to say. To have issues with boundaries, one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I Iove you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time -- everything. If I love you, I will carry all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will protect upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all these and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else. :( 

If I could just whisper it to the clouds...

I have this fascination for clouds, I can't even remember when it began. It's actually one of the things I look forward to when I ride a plane. The feeling of getting so close to those fluffy  clouds, simply captivating!

Bound for Bohol in 2008

Taken on our way to Puerto Princesa

Breathtaking view, going back home from HCM

All the little frustrations, problems, and the unneccessary stress,

If I could just whisper those to the clouds,

They would probably just vanish into thin air.

The Sweet Life

Can we just fast forward to April? Three folds: Firstly, it's my birth month. Secondly, it'll be Seyki's 8th anniversary. Yes, eight years is indeed an accomplishment for us both. I'm just so blessed to have this kind of relationship with one of the most wonderful men in my life and in the world. Lastly, we're bound for Boracay to celebrate the eight amazing years together. 

I don't know what it is with traveling that makes me so want it. Maybe, my mom is such a great influence. IF ONLY I have the money, I'd travel once a month just to satisfy this inner desire. More than the luxury of staying in a nice, comfy place and the thought of waking up with a buffet breakfast waiting for me (yes, this is something I look forward to in every trip), there's this satisfaction or sense of fulfillment everytime I board a plane, knowing that I'm bound somewhere fun, exciting, and gratifying. 

I've only been to a few places (Hong Kong, Vietnam, Bohol, Boracay, and Palawan to name a few) and I've been badly wanting to explore more (a lot of local and international destinations are in my wish list) to discover new culture and at the same time unearth something about myself. I'm praying hard that God will allow me to do this so I could enjoy every bit of opportunity while I'm still young. 

As I always say, "Quiero viajar el mundo con Igme y mi familia".

More than that, I have always believe that life is much, much sweeter when you travel. :P

Finally!

I finally found the time to make an account. What brought me here? I just realized that I suddenly miss writing, my first love.

Will try my best to post as much as I could, so as not to defeat the purpose of why I made this account. Ciao!!!